Thursday, October 9, 2008

October- the turning


September 2008
The Turning- I've always been sensitive to this particular turning- the September turning- it's always been my birthday, when the cold was coming but the air was so delicious as to be tormenting. Thank goodness we live in the trees.
You know, I've always considered the turning of the universe to remain uneventful for long periods of time, and then suddenly coalesce into radical catalysm. Not cataclysm; catalysm. We are in a time like that now. I am personally in a triple turning sequence- that of the globe, that of my life span, and that of the season. September. 9- when the season begins to renew itself spiritually while the organic begins to disorganize.

Well now, that's deep (elephant) shit- perfectly OK because the cycle renews itself with the fire of decay and the wind of mirth. Now I'll try to talk straight. Awww...

We're at a crossroads now in the world- a breakpoint. I recognize the symptoms, having lived on both sides of my own breakpoint a bit. I don't mean to say this in an urgent manner, though. I'm of course speaking globally. Now we will observe just how imaginary are the memeplexes which, for instance, hold up the banking system, or our behavior toward each other and the planet.

My big consideration when i began transformative mode in my late twenties was whether I would become an outsider or find some way of interfacing with a culture that i determined was becoming fouled by what we were doing as a nation. Well, Carol came along and fetched me up from my teethgrinding and moaning and gave me a baby or two- um, four. My decision was a given. Babies bring devotion- something which i had not studied very deeply until presented with the helpless.

I'm a very logical person- that is, i lay out potentials before me, derived from primarily personal experience, and ethic. The potentials which I laid out early in my transformative state separated into two main trunks-

If the grid stays up or
if the grid goes down.

I don't mean the electrical grid, particularly- I mean the whole global body of connectedness.

November 6, 2008
Well, I'll be.... it looks as if the grid will stay up. and if we are really tough we may not devolve. There is as much chance here of devolution as there is evolution; although, I must say, the energy expressed worldwide by the election of Obama is decidedly energizing and positive.

It has been a time of potential darkness for much of your adult life; you know, a sense of looming and dread. That was just a small sample of the negative psychic pressure any person of color has experienced to quote Colin Powell: "in the past 400 years, from the first colonies". What a devastating load for a Spirit to carry!

All who are bigots or racist know the humuliation of this condition- after all, that is the very condition they intend to impose- and are terrified of retribution, not necessarily from people of color, but from the concept "What comes around...". In the Judaeo-Christian traditions, the guilt for mistreating another is built in, and with it, the fear and violence it helps to produce.

When we lived in the Mississipi Delta for a couple of months; in the middle of the BB King story- in the same cotton fields, we were, without knowing it, provided with a window into what was about to happen. Intimately engaging with a museum collection/exhibit that is topical is like rewinding to the past and absorbing history through the artifacts. Then the story comes along at the last part of the process, and, if the exhibit is well designed, a vision comes! The BB King Exhibit really brought it home to me.
10 suburban white kids in a small but vibrant black community. Admittedly, most or all of us were freaks, but not obviously so. The Community there in Indianola really opened their arms to us without reservation. It was so nice just to be comfortable. You see, I generally, in white society, feel as I have to remain invisible in order to survive. I didn't feel that way among the Indianola Black Community. They are invisible with me. You know, that's one of the big reasons that people turned freak- to share that exclusion with non-whites; to take whatever part of the load we could- to protest the obvious crimes being committed on our behalf, supposedly. Those times have been mirrored in the past 8 years. Now you really get it, my children, how important it is to shine a light as much as is within your power. I keep talking about memeplexes because the concept is a perfect conceptual framework in which to put the history which is occuring right now.
The patterns driving the contrasting points-of-view are made clearer in times like these, when a decision is made by most of us where to place our little power-token. I am not belittling our vote by calling it a token. Our votes are counting sticks- currency.
What is it that we are voting for? We are voting for a complex set of ideas of which most of us are only marginally aware of. We'll call this whole animal a memeplex- a complex and organic idea tree- an idea structure.
In my understanding, the tree is divided conceptually- that which is coded in the genes or platforms of a nation or a government; and that which is seminal in nature, and catalytic.
The Democratic Idea is a memeplex, with a coded aspect, and also with a seminal aspect. Both aspects are necessary, as is the tension between them. It is in this pool of tension that our evolution as human beings resides- a combination of base and catalytic agents.
TBC







Friday, July 18, 2008


Into the world again July 17, 2008

I muse on what it is that we're doing underneath all our business-busyness. I am so thankful that we have chosen to embrace the family as an inseperable part of our lives. The Farmer and the Blacksmith as often as not had the grand opportunity of personally passing the paths which connect us to the earth- to his children. I have been so fortunate as to be allowed in this century of the nuclear family, to guide my childrens' hands to the earth, and nurture in them the intimate and powerful connection that i feel with the earth.

Somehow, somehow, i have been blessed with a life which not only compels me to feel deeply into the materials of the earth by wroughting; but allows me the opportunity to turn over in my hands and mind the artifacts wrought by my brothers and sisters all the way back to the bronze age.

The art of crafting in materials becomes after some experience a way to place oneself in the very cells of material. Opening the skin of the earth and borrowing its red clay flesh to be returned later in entropy- collecting and framing the stones of the earth into vertical cooperation- changing solid to liquid and back, to yield a mechanical structure or a work of art- collecting and sorting and combining growing entities into a daily repast.

Earth, air, fire, water,......flux.
Flux is the electric fire of lightning- the arc of electrical or nuclear passage from one form to another. Flux is the definition of where we (humans) are now. Flux, in its gentler form, is covering the world with our neural connections. It began with a simple wire and a coded impulse- not too long ago. In worldly terms, it was only a moment ago that Tesla was becoming intimate with the flux generated by simple friction. Now, we are more deeply in the flux than we realize.
As a political term, I often refer to "the grid going down". As a survival strategy, I find it absolutely necessary to envision that phenomenon, and attempt to prepare for it. Since I was 22 years old, and "got it"', I have been operating with a dual vision of the future, and concentrating my effort on a "crossover skill set"

Sunday, January 27, 2008

Ice and Fire - January to May

Ah, my Darlinks....

We have apparently made it through another of our lean times, and I have lived to experience another finest of fine days.

Our experiment with embracing our babies and our survival together has been so rewarding to me. Like most men who had to support a family, I had no clue until I got into the enviable position of GrandFather, of the amazing and fundamental joy of observing young things grow. Dads are so self centered (at least I was- but partially as a result of what I was taught a Man should be.)


Tara and Madison and Tony
Roselyn and Evan and Greg
Wendy and Brady and Mark
Lucile and Eliza and Andrew

This has been a year of the Child for me. As an introduction, Lisa provided us with a wonderful "Peter Pan" play at the Folly, replete with uncountable children. Like electrons, most of the time they move too fast to count. Benny and I really were blessed to observe the machinations of something like a Child Production up close, and we both marveled at it as it went along. I guess that was the alien children capturing our minds and spirits, correct? We spoke of it many times, Benny and I, as the production proceeded through its eight week cycle.
The final production was a Masterpiece of Mirth and Magic! We were Transformed!

This is all about Children, correct? Benny and I are a little tired, and the introduction of Many Children into our world was a rebirth to both of us. Mirth agitates the Fool in all of us to the surface, and the Children are the fundamental of Mirth. We (and I dare speak for Benny) are accoutered with Mirth and have a little strength left, and we are at your service, new Families!

So now here's the deal- the main thing Carol and I attempted to do for all of you while you were growing was to give you safe territory in which to tread, with ample daily experience to allow your natural talent to emerge. Now we have FOUR FRESH BABIES ALL AT THE SAME TIME to stay ahead of. What a spectacular mission to take up!

I think we have worked out the arrangements perfectly thus far in a very organic manner. I do like to think in the long range, though. Lots to accomplish, just to stay in front of the Baby Boom.
My personal long range planning involves the bare practicalities like indoor space and fenced grass. Oh- and a big-ass set of tables for the great room! You ladies must already talk amongst yourselves about how to do this, right? Reassure me here....
hahaha! You each, lovely couples, have amazing beautiful babies, and we are blessed to see them in a safe environment.

One of the things on my agenda is to make gates here and there at strategic spots in the house and immediate exterior. Right now we're experimenting with where they're needed (the gates). I would like to work under the assumption that this house will always have 3 generations and pets. So, in the spirit of Christopher Alexander's "Pattern Language", here we go on another growth spurt!
I sort of envision gates in the spirit of the bannister- Iron and wood related by some fundamental. These are necessary functions to fill for a smoothly running household with children and pets. But then we are artists here! The four positions for the gates are the two leading to the office areas, and the two doors from kitchen to kitchen. I challenge the wood and iron guys in the vicinity to fill those spaces. You see, I fantasize this place to eventually be full of Craftsmanship in the architecture built by all of us.
You will have to forgive me in my jumping back and forth between the details and the big picture. I feel like they need to be linked in purpose, you see.

Here's a detail that brings me great Joy.... This past month I have watched the emergence of three tasks far removed and intimately linked to each other by fundamentals:

with Greg and Chris and Tara
The glue is gone! The Glue is gone!
Tara found nice mat black acrylic and Greg made beautifully shaped supports for bags and other complex textile objects. I worked a method and material approach to attaching ultrasuede to the acrylic, and these gorgeous mounts appeared! Chris joined us and is quite good at applying the ultrasuede (no mean task). Yay, Yay!! (copyright Madison 2007)

with Benny and Tara and Herb and George
Design and fabricate from a functional necessity, one more time! Benny has penetrated Tinyworld! Our fundamental design, our vetting process for new approaches, and our execution are all developing to a very high level of skill, I think. The current set of master hardware systems (about 18 masters) we've been developing this week are so functional and delicate and beautiful! The exercise of being faced with an object to support in a clumsy mechanical situation (pegboard) demanded all of our assembled skills and experience to achieve. What a great team! (he exclaims).

with Al and Benny and Ardeth and Carol and Robert and Storm
Al makes Grand Exit! Oh, I am blessed to have experienced so many common ventures with Al. This one was spectacular! Storm took the standing rock maple carcass down perfectly- right into the pond I had dug there a year ago to catch the tree -see? Storm could only drop it right where I had dug the hole- or hit the fence, or cave in my office. Aren't I smart? (I was told by my spirit guide to dig that hole. I found the roots to a big maple tree. I seriously considered carving a tor (tower) of sculpture, but in the end, I didn't fell like it was safe to trust the roots of a heavy dead tree not to rot. So...
The crown jumped out I think about 4 years ago and landed upside down in the yard- so big that it jammed some of it's limbs deep into the ground. So Hizzonor has been standing there asking for attention for quite some time. It is a miracle that the forces were assembled here to give Hizzoner a proper dispensation. It wouldn't have been well for him to have laid around for someone to stub a toe on his large body. Well, the heavy parts were 36" in diameter and covered with limb-bump-whorls. We had to cut him in 9 foot lengths to get each length down to a ton.
This accomplished, how the hell to get him out of the hole I so personally dug? Between a rock and a two-ton tree, I'd say.
It appeared to me that Robert took personal pleasure in moving those two giants down to the back, where Al's Wood Mizer so conveniently sat. Did it matter that the trunks exceeded the saw? It would have mattered to me. Not to Al. He just simply took a big ass chain saw and cut off the bumps so it would fit in his saw. He didn't eeven bleenk! Well, at least we're not base jumping. The wood did get onto the sawbed, and we were fractions of an inch from success at every moment.
Now it lies sticked in the Folly Field, in beams and planks, drying out. I hope that it will become tables and chairs for the great room.
You know, when one reads a story of a great room and a counsel table, it doesn't seem too far from my imaginings. Even my wildest imaginings are set in function- the purpose of the great room is counsel- we are accumulating a fairly large body of people all affected by our mutual decisions, and the natural way to engage with the circumstances provoked by this type of organism is for all involved to be able to face each other in mirth and dearth. I can think of no greater honor than to build such a place with my family and tribe.
In my opinion, Architecture (Feng Shui, if you must) is paramount in family and tribal functioning. Both closeness and distancing are important. This polarity can be achieved with walls and can also be achieved with polity. The Japanese people have achieved a natural magic way to create spaces which seem to cloak the residents in a hushed awareness. When I enter a space created in the traditional manner, something very special occurs in my consciousness which suggests a path of understanding to the way in which they have survived the closeness of a small, heavily populated island. I am not suggesting that the Japanese culture is without squalor in their slums- no culture that I know of is without it. But, there is a segment of the population who quest for a plentiful and peaceful existence; I am one of them.

This addition that we are building, and the landscaping beyond, is the one in which, the fates willing, our children will grow up. I originally intended to follow the "co-housing" model on our land- hoping to build a home for each of us. That may still be possible, but the addition of four children to our midst suggests that we have to build faster than an engagement with the Planning Commission allows for. Perhaps in building this addition, we will get to know more about the process, and eventually be able to decide ourselves what we may build. The county was fairly free when we arrived, but the influx of speculative builders has corrupted the zoning process by forcing the organization which governs it to grow too fast. By growing organically here, we have allowed the corruption to outpace us. However, I really believe in organic growing as a viable concept in any undertaking, particularly in an Architecture which will shelter and grow a Family.

Forgive me for being so complex and disorganized. It is a monumental task for me to convey to you all that I feel the need to convey, and I operate in no way linear.

My mind-map for the architecture of the farm somewhat resembles what is presented in "A Pattern Language" by Christopher Alexander. It is not his specific scenarios that are important about his work. He's, in my opinion, a little dogmatic about how things are arranged- which is what puts some people off when they read his works. However, the organism (organization/mechanism) which he has created for seeking an Intelligent Architecture is exquisite! He has lifted himself above the Meme of contemporary architecture to weave a Meme of entirely other points of consideration.
An example is toggling an electronic map from a road map to an aerial photograph- Alexander toggles from looking at the architecture to living in it. Each of these maps is a Meme: a way of seeing the same territory through the lens of a different set of considerations.

I see our property through a different lens than a normal person would think. It is not only a flat map of a piece of earth. That level of perception only defines where the earth meets the air. To perceive a space in this way is like taking a micron thin slice of a living organism and calling that wafer the organism.
When I think of our property (as I must, because our endeavors are currently restricted to this 10.1 acres), I remember the change in the air when Carol and I were first driving out here, as we came up over the first big hill and the terrain of the area laid out before us. I remember digging all those French Intensive beds in the garden and seeing the earth and its creatures exposed, and being grateful that Ward Larue had kept this very earth clean and free of pesticides for 20 years preceding us. I am aware of the sacred spirit always present at the Folly. I remember the closeness and respect and love shared here. We have made, or perhaps only occupied, a True space; a bubble, where we can grow.
This Architecture that we are creating now will, I think, be called on to serve a multiplicity of purposes in the coming years. The addition has a public space and a private space. For now, the private space is to be the home of the Mendez Family. Hopefully, though, as they grow, we will surmount the legal blockades presented us and build a house for them, and for all of our families.
The public space can have many functions, particularly in that, as planned, it connects with the outdoors so well. I am hoping that it will provide a room in which creative functions of the business and of the family can overlap.
I plan to fabricate from Hizzonor the tree two large (40" x 108") trestle tables which can be pushed against the wall or brought to center for celebrations or working. If the wood dries well, I also plan to fabricate chairs based on the wooden armchair presently in the kitchen. I have studied it and patterned it, and it seems not too difficult a task to recreate as many as the wood will provide. That's almost as good as a standing sculpture, right? Probably better.
In the south end, I would like to have one interior tree, perhaps a cutting from our fig tree. I think it might be happy inside. I would like to have as many breathing plants as we can at that end of the building.
Carol and I are pretty excited about the prospect of a stained cement floor- the one in Kelly's studio is just delicious. In my heart-of-hearts, I prefer a clay floor, but I don't think the mechanics of a clay floor and a radiant heating system mesh well. However, a stained and waxed cement floor is very close.
I think that there might be some separation between the first two bays from the north and the south bay. The sun at perihelion on the winter solstice penetrates just about 13 feet into the south windows, and in my opinion, a large heat sink just inside this perimeter would be desireable. I purchased a bunch of black slate and tile for this purpose, but we still need more. I think that something like a knee-wall across the space at that point would work well to bring the collected heat up from the floor and hold it for awhile.
I really do believe that we need to put more focus on becoming green, particularly with this new space. I have always been planning for solar collectors and radiant heating. Recently I have begun noodling about using the existing cistern as a mud sink heat collector. I had originally thought to refinish it and use it as a water cistern again, but I feel confident that we can find other ways to collect rainwater. A mud sink heat collector is basically an insulated mud pit with a radiator system submerged in it. I read an article in Mother Earth News once about the technique, and it's a really simple way to retain collected heat (or cool in the summer). Frank Lloyd Wright had some really good passive heating and cooling designs in his homes. The Romans had similar concepts for cooling and heating their spaces using earth, air, fire, and water in context. I really believe that we should plan these things into our house. For instance, we always have a fire going in the winter, but, because our fireplace is 100 years old, we are only gaining a small portion of the heat provided. We added an airtight stove to the situation, but that only gains us some percentage. I am really interested in using some of that energy in context with radiant heating.
The old part of the house is leaky regarding energy, but I'm really not wanting to live in an airtight house. I believe that a home has to breathe, which necessitates a lot of heat loss. Where we might consider gaining heat retention is in the insulation. One really great heat loss in a house is radiating heat from uninsulated or poorly insulated walls and roofs. The insulation in our walls is blown-in, probably haphazardly, and has certainly settled over the years, so you can surmise that the rising heat meets the wall at ceiling height and is immediately radiated out through the walls. The office in particular seems to have no insulation at all.
I know that all this seems insurmountable, but look what we have accomplished over the years! Carry on!